I hadn't heard this song before this week, but I discovered it as a result of a queer contemplative spirituality group that I attended on Monday evening.
If you'd like to read the lyrics, you can find them online here.
There's a few lines in the chorus that really stood out for me.
I want to believe
Instead, I look at the sky and I feel nothing
You know I hate to be alone
I want to be wrong
I remember feeling that way not long before I found my way to St. John's on Christmas Eve 2016 even if I didn't want to admit that I wanted to believe ... and now I reflect on how my journey has changed since I found myself here and gave myself permission to believe again.
I didn't realize then that I had been in a period of waiting, like we are now in this season of Advent. I wonder what God is hoping to birth in us as we journey together.